EDtwt veteran, 27, she/her || 21+ mdni, non ED dnihttps://bsky.app/profile/kessaskcals.bsky.socialhttps://bsky.app/profile/kessaskcals.bsky.social/post/3lvlgbfxxtc2sI'm going to leave this account up but I will not be posting to it. Find me on X @/kessakcal04 Aug 2025 14:38 +0000at://did:plc:24g6s3lyboa7drwjrb46lrnb/app.bsky.feed.post/3lvlgbfxxtc2shttps://bsky.app/profile/kessaskcals.bsky.social/post/3lvdsxy25ds2yGoing back to ed/twt01 Aug 2025 14:04 +0000at://did:plc:24g6s3lyboa7drwjrb46lrnb/app.bsky.feed.post/3lvdsxy25ds2yhttps://bsky.app/profile/kessaskcals.bsky.social/post/3lv6qlte4ak2oCan't bring my boyfriend to my dad's because my dad is racist Nazi fuck and I just can't do that to someone. Just cause I'm stuck with this creature for a parent doesn't mean I have to involve anyone else in it.30 Jul 2025 13:38 +0000at://did:plc:24g6s3lyboa7drwjrb46lrnb/app.bsky.feed.post/3lv6qlte4ak2ohttps://bsky.app/profile/kessaskcals.bsky.social/post/3lv6kxuudxc2oIdk what to do. I'm just a disappointment again and honestly close to cutting ties to my dad again because I just can't perform. Sucks that my family is conditional30 Jul 2025 11:57 +0000at://did:plc:24g6s3lyboa7drwjrb46lrnb/app.bsky.feed.post/3lv6kxuudxc2ohttps://bsky.app/profile/kessaskcals.bsky.social/post/3lv432i4htc2nAnnnnnnd I'm a pussy who's flaked on every plan I've made in the last year. I'm not going [contains quote post or other embedded content]29 Jul 2025 12:07 +0000at://did:plc:24g6s3lyboa7drwjrb46lrnb/app.bsky.feed.post/3lv432i4htc2nhttps://bsky.app/profile/kessaskcals.bsky.social/post/3lv2kgcc2722jReally close to going full feral over a new favorite character. I watched T W O (2) episodes on Friday and now I'm current in all 144 chapters of the manga. Show/Manga is Gachikuta and it's sick af. Character is Rudo https://media.tenor.com/HIdx0vjYzngAAAAC/gachiakuta-rudo.gif?hh=281&ww=49828 Jul 2025 21:37 +0000at://did:plc:24g6s3lyboa7drwjrb46lrnb/app.bsky.feed.post/3lv2kgcc2722jhttps://bsky.app/profile/kessaskcals.bsky.social/post/3lv2jvpfbl22jSurprise beach trip this weekend, I am going to lose it :( I'm going to go completely off the rails this time and just outright refuse to wear a bathing suit. For the record, I don't even know how to swim so I'm not missing out28 Jul 2025 21:28 +0000at://did:plc:24g6s3lyboa7drwjrb46lrnb/app.bsky.feed.post/3lv2jvpfbl22jhttps://bsky.app/profile/kessaskcals.bsky.social/post/3luuqfghx2k2uRediscovering my love for manga 🫶26 Jul 2025 14:08 +0000at://did:plc:24g6s3lyboa7drwjrb46lrnb/app.bsky.feed.post/3luuqfghx2k2uhttps://bsky.app/profile/kessaskcals.bsky.social/post/3lumtaqmbm22dI haven't eaten in a few days and I'm not hungry at all. .... Okay yes, now that you mention it I may be disassociating since I feel nothing at all, period. Not hungry/full, hot/cold, tired/pain. At least I'm still sleeping23 Jul 2025 10:37 +0000at://did:plc:24g6s3lyboa7drwjrb46lrnb/app.bsky.feed.post/3lumtaqmbm22dhttps://bsky.app/profile/kessaskcals.bsky.social/post/3lukp6vimgk2pI don't know what I'm doing wrong. I'm depressed as hell. So I keep doing things to improve my confidence and I workout in non destructive ways now. It keeps getting worse.22 Jul 2025 14:20 +0000at://did:plc:24g6s3lyboa7drwjrb46lrnb/app.bsky.feed.post/3lukp6vimgk2phttps://bsky.app/profile/kessaskcals.bsky.social/post/3lu5qpal57c24I wish I could go back and talk myself out of gaining weight. Cause clearly I didn't recover at all, just gained weight17 Jul 2025 10:42 +0000at://did:plc:24g6s3lyboa7drwjrb46lrnb/app.bsky.feed.post/3lu5qpal57c24https://bsky.app/profile/kessaskcals.bsky.social/post/3lu4b3en2s22eBeing current in 0ne P!ece sucks. This is how I end up returning to fanfiction I bet16 Jul 2025 20:30 +0000at://did:plc:24g6s3lyboa7drwjrb46lrnb/app.bsky.feed.post/3lu4b3en2s22ehttps://bsky.app/profile/kessaskcals.bsky.social/post/3ltztnuamms25Shout out to oomf from the old app who suggested keeping your bread frozen. Makes it harder to binge + always fresh15 Jul 2025 21:24 +0000at://did:plc:24g6s3lyboa7drwjrb46lrnb/app.bsky.feed.post/3ltztnuamms25https://bsky.app/profile/kessaskcals.bsky.social/post/3lttyf6cnc22sI get closer to relapse slowly. Just need to bide my time13 Jul 2025 13:33 +0000at://did:plc:24g6s3lyboa7drwjrb46lrnb/app.bsky.feed.post/3lttyf6cnc22shttps://bsky.app/profile/kessaskcals.bsky.social/post/3ltscc3qebk2rBeen on a BG//3 kick. That's been good12 Jul 2025 21:25 +0000at://did:plc:24g6s3lyboa7drwjrb46lrnb/app.bsky.feed.post/3ltscc3qebk2rhttps://bsky.app/profile/kessaskcals.bsky.social/post/3ltkqqclajs2eFucked up at work after already feeling pretty bad. I'm kinda just in my room waiting for the day to end. I'm so tired09 Jul 2025 21:22 +0000at://did:plc:24g6s3lyboa7drwjrb46lrnb/app.bsky.feed.post/3ltkqqclajs2ehttps://bsky.app/profile/kessaskcals.bsky.social/post/3lthr6m7vk22ymissing my old x moots :,/// the ones who stayed behind08 Jul 2025 16:52 +0000at://did:plc:24g6s3lyboa7drwjrb46lrnb/app.bsky.feed.post/3lthr6m7vk22yhttps://bsky.app/profile/kessaskcals.bsky.social/post/3lthcyhcsd22mI'm going to call my dad today, gotta do it. I've been talking about it for weeks08 Jul 2025 12:38 +0000at://did:plc:24g6s3lyboa7drwjrb46lrnb/app.bsky.feed.post/3lthcyhcsd22mhttps://bsky.app/profile/kessaskcals.bsky.social/post/3lthcefxdds2mtoo scared to weigh myself or count cals but I've been roughly maintaining. however that won't last if I keep drinking08 Jul 2025 12:27 +0000at://did:plc:24g6s3lyboa7drwjrb46lrnb/app.bsky.feed.post/3lthcefxdds2mhttps://bsky.app/profile/kessaskcals.bsky.social/post/3ltha65yp5c2mdesperate enough to consider therapy08 Jul 2025 11:48 +0000at://did:plc:24g6s3lyboa7drwjrb46lrnb/app.bsky.feed.post/3ltha65yp5c2mhttps://bsky.app/profile/kessaskcals.bsky.social/post/3ltha4tx6is2mwe got post notifs....but not private accts 😩 bite my ass bro, where's my priv accts???08 Jul 2025 11:47 +0000at://did:plc:24g6s3lyboa7drwjrb46lrnb/app.bsky.feed.post/3ltha4tx6is2mhttps://bsky.app/profile/kessaskcals.bsky.social/post/3lteopxugo22aIdk what to do. I hate my life so bad. I can't find a way to get stability07 Jul 2025 11:30 +0000at://did:plc:24g6s3lyboa7drwjrb46lrnb/app.bsky.feed.post/3lteopxugo22ahttps://bsky.app/profile/kessaskcals.bsky.social/post/3ltacsh73ds2oIf working out doesn't give me endorphins does that mean I'm not doing it right05 Jul 2025 17:46 +0000at://did:plc:24g6s3lyboa7drwjrb46lrnb/app.bsky.feed.post/3ltacsh73ds2ohttps://bsky.app/profile/kessaskcals.bsky.social/post/3lta66luhkk2oGonna do a workout then idk maybe nap? Cry? I keep procrastinating calling my dad. I need to get this figured out, I have just six months to move05 Jul 2025 16:23 +0000at://did:plc:24g6s3lyboa7drwjrb46lrnb/app.bsky.feed.post/3lta66luhkk2ohttps://bsky.app/profile/kessaskcals.bsky.social/post/3lt5ooc773c22I just need to replace my bookshelf and it will be the first time I've had furniture I *want* in my room and not what I *settle* for04 Jul 2025 16:40 +0000at://did:plc:24g6s3lyboa7drwjrb46lrnb/app.bsky.feed.post/3lt5ooc773c22https://bsky.app/profile/kessaskcals.bsky.social/post/3lt44huidvs25Trying to talk to bf went exactly how I feared it would.04 Jul 2025 01:42 +0000at://did:plc:24g6s3lyboa7drwjrb46lrnb/app.bsky.feed.post/3lt44huidvs25https://bsky.app/profile/kessaskcals.bsky.social/post/3lt2oglsbsc2vI'm doing:) really bad:) I cried all night, had nightmares, bf refused to see me this morning. I have nowhere to go. Literally not a single safe space. At this point do I just turn myself in somewhere? What's up?03 Jul 2025 11:58 +0000at://did:plc:24g6s3lyboa7drwjrb46lrnb/app.bsky.feed.post/3lt2oglsbsc2vhttps://bsky.app/profile/kessaskcals.bsky.social/post/3lsz5urdlx22mIdk wtf I'm doing for food today, I haven't eat so far. May just .. not :) we will have to see. Basically I have to restructure my life and beliefs now. Despite best efforts became important again at work. Will probably be moving soon02 Jul 2025 21:29 +0000at://did:plc:24g6s3lyboa7drwjrb46lrnb/app.bsky.feed.post/3lsz5urdlx22mhttps://bsky.app/profile/kessaskcals.bsky.social/post/3lsz5kzy6ts2mI really went "I'm not emotionally abandoned *that* often-" gurrrrl the acceptable number of times to be emotionally abandoned is ZERO. That is the only acceptable amount. Standards. Learn them. Let's go.02 Jul 2025 21:24 +0000at://did:plc:24g6s3lyboa7drwjrb46lrnb/app.bsky.feed.post/3lsz5kzy6ts2mhttps://bsky.app/profile/kessaskcals.bsky.social/post/3lsyln6y22c2iThis day is a little bit actually cursed. I get in a fight with bf, my twin needs emergency surgery. I'm going to burst into a million pieces and cry02 Jul 2025 16:03 +0000at://did:plc:24g6s3lyboa7drwjrb46lrnb/app.bsky.feed.post/3lsyln6y22c2i