@prblmtcfd.bsky.social - nia (⁠◍⁠•⁠ᴗ⁠•⁠◍⁠)⁠✧⁠*⁠。

09 Oct 2025 21:42 +0000

why do I even fucking bother im such a waste of space all I do is fucking whine and whinge constantly even im bored of listening to it. i don't work hard enough and i blame everything but myself, I should just take the common denominator out of the equation already

06 Oct 2025 15:06 +0000

Today has been so completely stressful I want to quit my job and degree and become homeless and lay in a forest until the wildlife feast on my flesh and the birds make my hair into a nest and I finally get to stop thinking or feeling anything.

06 Oct 2025 09:29 +0000

saturday brunch. felt humbled during the local pub visit part of the night.

02 Oct 2025 18:41 +0000

tw: sh urges lowkey scared for Saturday. i always get such bad sh urges when I'm drunk and it's going to be daytime when I get home so I can't even sleep it off. i actually think im gonna fuck myself up and the sickest part is that a part of me is excited to see if i can go deeper 😐

01 Oct 2025 18:08 +0000

I keep thinking about the Sims / Primark Collab pyjamas. I want the pants so badddd but I have to be strong

29 Sep 2025 19:08 +0000

✨ 𝓪𝓬𝓬𝓸𝓾𝓷𝓽𝓪𝓫𝓲𝓵𝓲𝓽𝔂 𝓽𝓱𝓻𝓮𝓪𝓭 ✨

29 Sep 2025 18:17 +0000

hmm. if I eat no more than 797 calories a day and do light exercise 1-3 times a week I'll hit 40kg by mid December. that's 5579 kcal a week. maybe I should start an accountability thread because 2.5 months to ugw is so close I can taste it 🤔

28 Sep 2025 21:20 +0000

narrowly avoided worst symptom. to be perfectly honest i think it was caused by dumping syndrome following binging and entire tray of brownies but fml id rather keep my bedsheets clean

23 Sep 2025 23:29 +0000

excuse the shit drawing but does anyone ever feel like this it’s hard to describe (tw sh depiction in drawing)

22 Sep 2025 18:15 +0000

im gonna be so broke moving house soon, living alone is damn expensive and paying 2 rents will kill me. but I lived on a budget of £4 a day in uni for a year, I can do it again for a few months. shits just gonna be hard 😮‍💨 if I save as much as possible this month I can at least pay my cc debt off

18 Sep 2025 16:47 +0000

eating disorder? eating dis order 😈😝

17 Sep 2025 13:19 +0000

is it just me who thinks the snapchat discover section is really f'ed up? i know it's trash but this caught my eye and I pressed on it and they literally have a label that comes up on the people who talk saying 'ANOREXIC', funnily enough didn't do that for obese people (who can have eds anyway)

15 Sep 2025 21:07 +0000

ugh it's been months since I sh'ed bc I scared myself as it was so bad last time but now they're beginning to fade and I want to do it again :< it's been awful healing and my bf would be so upset but I can't stop thinking about it

11 Sep 2025 18:35 +0000

going to see a local band ✌️ peek the fit might delete but yolo

10 Sep 2025 19:59 +0000

didn't lose anything even tho I've been in a deficit or maintenance so i let my inner fatty fat fat out and grabbed everything I've been craving. ill forever be trapped in this body of lard 😔

09 Sep 2025 19:20 +0000

eating maintenance is better than overeating eating maintenance is better than overeating eating maintenance is better than overeating eating maintenance is better than overeating eating maintenance is better than overeating https://media.tenor.com/OrvFE7_3wWEAAAAC/orbarbs-blackpink.gif?hh=479&ww=498

09 Sep 2025 14:15 +0000

there's a girl on my Facebook who posted about her ed relapse and starting recovery again which is great except why is she posting pictures of her at the relapse lw and directly comparing it to pre-relapse (two dress sizes down in 4 weeks she said multiple times)

09 Sep 2025 08:25 +0000

god I love caffeine I'm such a caffeinepilled energymaxxer I sure hope the doctor doesn't tell me to stop drinking caffeine when I go for a check-up about frequent tachycardia

08 Sep 2025 22:26 +0000

we're so back, I say after completing one day of high res and 10k steps, knowing full well this is what leads to failure https://media.tenor.com/39cFA0HE90YAAAAC/freaky-sonic.gif?hh=498&ww=467

08 Sep 2025 16:55 +0000

girl dinner omad still counts if I had a latte right 🥹

08 Sep 2025 01:28 +0000

3/4 days I've gone over 1000 and yet im still hungry >:[ I think I've just about kept under maintenance but i want results noaw

07 Sep 2025 16:19 +0000

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