Love this, love that. これが大好き、あれが大好き。 愛這個，愛那個。https://bsky.app/profile/noh.bsky.socialhttps://bsky.app/profile/noh.bsky.social/post/3meiwjiharc25Just because I went through a horrible ordeal and you did too, doesn’t mean I or you have qulifications to start justifying on how either one of us should start a relationship. I never want to connect relations via trauma sympathy. It feels like branding a loser mark on me.10 Feb 2026 12:09 +0000at://did:plc:km6trosekavyc7ya7cxcvzyn/app.bsky.feed.post/3meiwjiharc25https://bsky.app/profile/noh.bsky.social/post/3meiw4pgzjk25There is no “together-ness” in my depression. It is impossible to suffer through lonelyness as a group even if the problem is similar. Relatable and familiar are not the same as identical. Stop romanticizing pain and defeat. Stop making losers feel like psuedo-winners by saying irresponsible things.10 Feb 2026 12:01 +0000at://did:plc:km6trosekavyc7ya7cxcvzyn/app.bsky.feed.post/3meiw4pgzjk25https://bsky.app/profile/noh.bsky.social/post/3mb6xzcp7f22eWhen I thought people care in rality they don’t. But in truth would I have cared without knowing what it had felt like? Probably not. But I would rather me laugh the have myself cry. I just want to create memories and experiences that I can appreciate.30 Dec 2025 08:53 +0000at://did:plc:km6trosekavyc7ya7cxcvzyn/app.bsky.feed.post/3mb6xzcp7f22ehttps://bsky.app/profile/noh.bsky.social/post/3mb6xtksjss2eWhy do relationships always have to banter, why can’t people just be genuine or be okay with vulnerability without taking advantage. I can’t wait to fullstop my life.30 Dec 2025 08:50 +0000at://did:plc:km6trosekavyc7ya7cxcvzyn/app.bsky.feed.post/3mb6xtksjss2ehttps://bsky.app/profile/noh.bsky.social/post/3mb6xodtibk2eThere are too much positivity in depression and ceasing to exist, not the same as suicide, environment spaces. All these people trying to light a way do not respect the ones who are lost. I don’t want to be found, I want to find my path. Everyone trying to be a GPS for nowhere I want.30 Dec 2025 08:47 +0000at://did:plc:km6trosekavyc7ya7cxcvzyn/app.bsky.feed.post/3mb6xodtibk2ehttps://bsky.app/profile/noh.bsky.social/post/3mb6xewtnjk2eToday I looked up ways to purchase and produce MAiD or medical aid in death and I could not get some without having a doctor, which I don’t have, and killing myself. No qualifications either without a doctor for a state provided MAiD.30 Dec 2025 08:42 +0000at://did:plc:km6trosekavyc7ya7cxcvzyn/app.bsky.feed.post/3mb6xewtnjk2ehttps://bsky.app/profile/noh.bsky.social/post/3mafy7a72kc2pHmm, can’t relate. Can’t understand. Can’t cooperate. Can’t.20 Dec 2025 10:20 +0000at://did:plc:km6trosekavyc7ya7cxcvzyn/app.bsky.feed.post/3mafy7a72kc2phttps://bsky.app/profile/noh.bsky.social/post/3mafy3qr37s2pTyping and talking really makes a difference. both have permanance and both have temporary sequences. For a nobody, both are always happening and have the same differences at the same progression. Talking is bad for me. Typing is worse for me.20 Dec 2025 10:18 +0000at://did:plc:km6trosekavyc7ya7cxcvzyn/app.bsky.feed.post/3mafy3qr37s2phttps://bsky.app/profile/noh.bsky.social/post/3mafxvsu2es2pThinking is harmful because it gives me a way out. I don’t escapism. Reality makes me think about stuff and am I tired of thinking about stuff. I did do stuff before, but it always ended up never succeeding. Thinking brings me falsehood.20 Dec 2025 10:15 +0000at://did:plc:km6trosekavyc7ya7cxcvzyn/app.bsky.feed.post/3mafxvsu2es2phttps://bsky.app/profile/noh.bsky.social/post/3mafxpk4drs2pYes, nobody is always alone. No, we aren’t in it together. Comedy is not a coping mechanism because coping implies wishful thinking when I stopped wishing altogether. I choose to not fail and yet here I am. Emotions are not natural to me anymore.20 Dec 2025 10:11 +0000at://did:plc:km6trosekavyc7ya7cxcvzyn/app.bsky.feed.post/3mafxpk4drs2phttps://bsky.app/profile/noh.bsky.social/post/3mafxgwsawk2pHow do I even approach people with a shallow puddle of anything to entertain about or to even stay in touch or on a daily basis. Why does anyone always know about anything to bring up about. When I can’t even form an idea.20 Dec 2025 10:06 +0000at://did:plc:km6trosekavyc7ya7cxcvzyn/app.bsky.feed.post/3mafxgwsawk2phttps://bsky.app/profile/noh.bsky.social/post/3mafx5wghuk2pStuck in the past, lamenting about the present, nothing in the future. Will nobody do nothing? That is an absolute.20 Dec 2025 10:01 +0000at://did:plc:km6trosekavyc7ya7cxcvzyn/app.bsky.feed.post/3mafx5wghuk2phttps://bsky.app/profile/noh.bsky.social/post/3mafx3udo222pMy boredom is equating to my life. Why do I even bother doing stuff. For validation? To seek like minded peers? Be proven true? At this point even succeeding will never bring about anything I used to have.20 Dec 2025 10:00 +0000at://did:plc:km6trosekavyc7ya7cxcvzyn/app.bsky.feed.post/3mafx3udo222phttps://bsky.app/profile/noh.bsky.social/post/3mafwtcpaxk2pProbability and statistic are the worst approach to logic especially my logic. Just because it is above or below a certain threshold do not mean I belong in it or at the very least on the good end. I will choose the side of failure just to succeed.20 Dec 2025 09:55 +0000at://did:plc:km6trosekavyc7ya7cxcvzyn/app.bsky.feed.post/3mafwtcpaxk2phttps://bsky.app/profile/noh.bsky.social/post/3mafwo3n6qk2pAll virtual reality is just a gimmick in life for the ones that know. I want to know but am always late. What with nothing with nobody can do to even enjoy anything or to even try to understand anything. Even real reality is converting into a gimmick.20 Dec 2025 09:52 +0000at://did:plc:km6trosekavyc7ya7cxcvzyn/app.bsky.feed.post/3mafwo3n6qk2phttps://bsky.app/profile/noh.bsky.social/post/3mafwj7gbvk2pStop telling me motivations, sound advices, words of wisdom, or anything related to comfort or security or being able to resolve conflict in the future. I am tried of the same routine, checklist, wander and wonder, wishes and hopes.20 Dec 2025 09:50 +0000at://did:plc:km6trosekavyc7ya7cxcvzyn/app.bsky.feed.post/3mafwj7gbvk2phttps://bsky.app/profile/noh.bsky.social/post/3mafwdihzxk2pStories of the nobody is difficult to obtain. Stories of the nobody do not become stories because they do not succeed. This isn’t a story either because nobody has no definite anything. That’s why those who try to understand are in it for themselves, and I mean those who succeed.20 Dec 2025 09:46 +0000at://did:plc:km6trosekavyc7ya7cxcvzyn/app.bsky.feed.post/3mafwdihzxk2phttps://bsky.app/profile/noh.bsky.social/post/3mafvz7b2t22pThose who have been through success in life often are the ones that tell those who have never to “keep trying.” When do I get my part. When can I finally become the good lore. Everyone only cares about the end. No one wants the current failure.20 Dec 2025 09:41 +0000at://did:plc:km6trosekavyc7ya7cxcvzyn/app.bsky.feed.post/3mafvz7b2t22phttps://bsky.app/profile/noh.bsky.social/post/3mafvss4x2s2pI also really am starting to dislike the “Let’s struggle together” mentality. I know that read off as arrogance, but I just don’t want to lore up for any one any more. No one cares, no one is there, no one is coming for me. Waiting for my suffering to end is all I can do now.20 Dec 2025 09:37 +0000at://did:plc:km6trosekavyc7ya7cxcvzyn/app.bsky.feed.post/3mafvss4x2s2phttps://bsky.app/profile/noh.bsky.social/post/3mafvlzjghs2pLately, I’ve been watching and listen to videos about not wanting to exist and I feel like nothing is working for me anymore. Everyone either says the same thing or are very generic about the topic at hand. I feel as though only those who lived tell good.20 Dec 2025 09:33 +0000at://did:plc:km6trosekavyc7ya7cxcvzyn/app.bsky.feed.post/3mafvlzjghs2phttps://bsky.app/profile/noh.bsky.social/post/3mafvgdpdr22pI watched season two of Fionna and Cake. It made me cry and made me wish I had purpose in life, enough to seek or feel like I am worth it.20 Dec 2025 09:30 +0000at://did:plc:km6trosekavyc7ya7cxcvzyn/app.bsky.feed.post/3mafvgdpdr22phttps://bsky.app/profile/noh.bsky.social/post/3mafvclituk2pHey, I am nobody, but you can call me Noh for short. I don’t feel like living though I don’t enjoy pain enough to perish. I will continue to suffer hoping, wishing, or whatever for this patheic life of mine to eventually cease to exist.20 Dec 2025 09:28 +0000at://did:plc:km6trosekavyc7ya7cxcvzyn/app.bsky.feed.post/3mafvclituk2p