Going through quite a bit with no outlet, thought maybe this might help. It won’t. “This is, my final fit My final, bellyache.”https://bsky.app/profile/feelingthecold.bsky.socialhttps://bsky.app/profile/feelingthecold.bsky.social/post/3mitmftgew22uI just want to bleed. Just as things were meant to be.06 Apr 2026 15:48 +0000at://did:plc:mfjbrsqmib34p4wvoa3s3g37/app.bsky.feed.post/3mitmftgew22uhttps://bsky.app/profile/feelingthecold.bsky.social/post/3mfzddh2ehc2xAre my wailings just attention seeking? Should I abstain from seeking attention? I don’t want to do things alone. I know it’s really lame but this soreness in my heart doesn’t want to do anything with my meaningless life. But then again, why should I call upon and therefore waste the time of others?01 Mar 2026 18:06 +0000at://did:plc:mfjbrsqmib34p4wvoa3s3g37/app.bsky.feed.post/3mfzddh2ehc2xhttps://bsky.app/profile/feelingthecold.bsky.social/post/3mfmttlukps2oNo one is here to pry me out… Guess I’ll just sink.24 Feb 2026 18:56 +0000at://did:plc:mfjbrsqmib34p4wvoa3s3g37/app.bsky.feed.post/3mfmttlukps2ohttps://bsky.app/profile/feelingthecold.bsky.social/post/3mdpvdppuq22vPlease just fucking kill me already31 Jan 2026 13:11 +0000at://did:plc:mfjbrsqmib34p4wvoa3s3g37/app.bsky.feed.post/3mdpvdppuq22vhttps://bsky.app/profile/feelingthecold.bsky.social/post/3mdpl23dmrs2nI’m so tired being a waste of space31 Jan 2026 10:06 +0000at://did:plc:mfjbrsqmib34p4wvoa3s3g37/app.bsky.feed.post/3mdpl23dmrs2nhttps://bsky.app/profile/feelingthecold.bsky.social/post/3mcdegepvws2uWhatever hurts me the most. I deserve it.13 Jan 2026 20:11 +0000at://did:plc:mfjbrsqmib34p4wvoa3s3g37/app.bsky.feed.post/3mcdegepvws2uhttps://bsky.app/profile/feelingthecold.bsky.social/post/3m7son7exrc2iScreaming into this void where nobody hears me is getting old.12 Dec 2025 18:08 +0000at://did:plc:mfjbrsqmib34p4wvoa3s3g37/app.bsky.feed.post/3m7son7exrc2ihttps://bsky.app/profile/feelingthecold.bsky.social/post/3m6xo4whlrs2jWhy is death so scary?02 Dec 2025 00:17 +0000at://did:plc:mfjbrsqmib34p4wvoa3s3g37/app.bsky.feed.post/3m6xo4whlrs2jhttps://bsky.app/profile/feelingthecold.bsky.social/post/3m5oqkq3vmc2zI’m a different face in the ballroom who can wax poetic to grab your attention, but when you take me by the hand and lead me to the floor you’re quick to learn I can’t keep time and trip over myself. An inelegant soirée intruder. Endearing? Maybe, once or twice. Worth the trouble? Absolutely not.15 Nov 2025 17:41 +0000at://did:plc:mfjbrsqmib34p4wvoa3s3g37/app.bsky.feed.post/3m5oqkq3vmc2zhttps://bsky.app/profile/feelingthecold.bsky.social/post/3m5oosambh22zI hate this feeling. It wells up inside me like a rampant fireworks show. Sometimes it’s too apparent and other people notice. I don’t want them to, I’m tired of making people care about me. I’m a leech, a parasite, a weed, a mite, a tick, a mosquito, a virus of pity that spreads itself on contact.15 Nov 2025 17:10 +0000at://did:plc:mfjbrsqmib34p4wvoa3s3g37/app.bsky.feed.post/3m5oosambh22zhttps://bsky.app/profile/feelingthecold.bsky.social/post/3m5emwgvw6k2eI hate this. I wish someone would just kill me. I’m too cowardly to do it myself so I no longer want to be a deciding factor anymore. I never deserved a say in whether I live or die anyway.11 Nov 2025 17:10 +0000at://did:plc:mfjbrsqmib34p4wvoa3s3g37/app.bsky.feed.post/3m5emwgvw6k2ehttps://bsky.app/profile/feelingthecold.bsky.social/post/3m5eidjsbqs22Tonight I tear down the wallpaper for I hate its artificiality, and tomorrow I’ll apply a brand new veneer of an ignorant smile and pretend I’m happy to be dying miserable.11 Nov 2025 15:48 +0000at://did:plc:mfjbrsqmib34p4wvoa3s3g37/app.bsky.feed.post/3m5eidjsbqs22https://bsky.app/profile/feelingthecold.bsky.social/post/3m5edputqac2xI want someone to kiss this rotten nectar off my lips. Pleasant tasting fluid turned neurotoxin. I want to fall apart only to be put back together by loving hands. Selfish request but sincere all the same. I don’t truly want for these things however. Because they aren’t real, they’re bad fantasies.11 Nov 2025 14:25 +0000at://did:plc:mfjbrsqmib34p4wvoa3s3g37/app.bsky.feed.post/3m5edputqac2xhttps://bsky.app/profile/feelingthecold.bsky.social/post/3m4upacbh4s27These warm days make me gross and reclusive and these cold nights leave me numb and lonely.05 Nov 2025 09:08 +0000at://did:plc:mfjbrsqmib34p4wvoa3s3g37/app.bsky.feed.post/3m4upacbh4s27https://bsky.app/profile/feelingthecold.bsky.social/post/3m44mkdbpdk2uNo matter how fast I run. No matter how far I get. My sins always catch up to me. I can’t ever escape them for their stamina and persistence is too great. My sloth has caused me to create so much wrong. So, as a penance I’ll let it swallow me whole. Taking both me and it out of this world.26 Oct 2025 19:17 +0000at://did:plc:mfjbrsqmib34p4wvoa3s3g37/app.bsky.feed.post/3m44mkdbpdk2uhttps://bsky.app/profile/feelingthecold.bsky.social/post/3m43wexr7ms2xThe moon was very pretty tonight. So pretty I started to cry. What is the purpose of all this meaningless beauty? If I can’t experience this feeling at a heartfelt level leave me out of it. All a shimmering lake surface provides is a reflection on how ugly I look in this world of wonder.26 Oct 2025 12:40 +0000at://did:plc:mfjbrsqmib34p4wvoa3s3g37/app.bsky.feed.post/3m43wexr7ms2xhttps://bsky.app/profile/feelingthecold.bsky.social/post/3m3znxdwb7k2qI don’t want to fall asleep. I want to drift off held in someone’s arms as they run their fingers through my hair. I want to cry unashamedly in someone’s presence, them pulling me into their chest and holding me. These are all gross delusions that my mental state concocted just so I can suffer more.25 Oct 2025 15:04 +0000at://did:plc:mfjbrsqmib34p4wvoa3s3g37/app.bsky.feed.post/3m3znxdwb7k2qhttps://bsky.app/profile/feelingthecold.bsky.social/post/3m3pzxzhjnk2fThe crack of dawn breaks as I crack under the weight of my immense sorrow. I sleep through daylight as if the moon provides sanctuary from reality. At night mystical darkness clouds my thoughts. For what reason do I wake? This is hell. I *am* the sinner. My recollection of the past fuels the fires.21 Oct 2025 19:12 +0000at://did:plc:mfjbrsqmib34p4wvoa3s3g37/app.bsky.feed.post/3m3pzxzhjnk2fhttps://bsky.app/profile/feelingthecold.bsky.social/post/3m3kkypu3js2oI’d rather die horrifically in a nightmare than be comforted by you in my vile dreams.19 Oct 2025 15:01 +0000at://did:plc:mfjbrsqmib34p4wvoa3s3g37/app.bsky.feed.post/3m3kkypu3js2ohttps://bsky.app/profile/feelingthecold.bsky.social/post/3m3bydlmmgc2gI was put on this planet to decay.16 Oct 2025 05:06 +0000at://did:plc:mfjbrsqmib34p4wvoa3s3g37/app.bsky.feed.post/3m3bydlmmgc2ghttps://bsky.app/profile/feelingthecold.bsky.social/post/3m36exymfzs2sKeep it in. Don’t let it out. Don’t make it their problem.14 Oct 2025 18:41 +0000at://did:plc:mfjbrsqmib34p4wvoa3s3g37/app.bsky.feed.post/3m36exymfzs2shttps://bsky.app/profile/feelingthecold.bsky.social/post/3m2lzdzatoc25Is there anyone out there? Or am I all alone?07 Oct 2025 11:25 +0000at://did:plc:mfjbrsqmib34p4wvoa3s3g37/app.bsky.feed.post/3m2lzdzatoc25https://bsky.app/profile/feelingthecold.bsky.social/post/3m2lxwyektc2507 Oct 2025 11:00 +0000at://did:plc:mfjbrsqmib34p4wvoa3s3g37/app.bsky.feed.post/3m2lxwyektc25https://bsky.app/profile/feelingthecold.bsky.social/post/3m2kccx4ums26Couldn’t sleep, my mind was too filled with him and the time we shared. His handsome face seeps into the cracks like glue and holds me together until it dissolves as memories do leaving me once again as a shattered vessel. I’m struggling to go on. It’s so painful.06 Oct 2025 19:00 +0000at://did:plc:mfjbrsqmib34p4wvoa3s3g37/app.bsky.feed.post/3m2kccx4ums26https://bsky.app/profile/feelingthecold.bsky.social/post/3m22zzkb6sc2vWhy don’t you care how I’m feeling, is it because I’d try to lie to make you not worry? Do you hate me?30 Sep 2025 17:22 +0000at://did:plc:mfjbrsqmib34p4wvoa3s3g37/app.bsky.feed.post/3m22zzkb6sc2vhttps://bsky.app/profile/feelingthecold.bsky.social/post/3m22z7ddn6k2vLosing you means losing my purpose. When you’re no longer anything to anybody what’s the point of shuffling along this cold existence. Why would people miss me when I mean nothing?30 Sep 2025 17:07 +0000at://did:plc:mfjbrsqmib34p4wvoa3s3g37/app.bsky.feed.post/3m22z7ddn6k2vhttps://bsky.app/profile/feelingthecold.bsky.social/post/3lzmzhegxqk2lThis morning I tried to fight waking up the best I could, in my dreams you were holding me and running your fingers through my hair. I wanted that to be my reality so bad. I feel so pathetic25 Sep 2025 03:35 +0000at://did:plc:mfjbrsqmib34p4wvoa3s3g37/app.bsky.feed.post/3lzmzhegxqk2lhttps://bsky.app/profile/feelingthecold.bsky.social/post/3lzmybzrjx22lI don’t want to wake unless you’re there.25 Sep 2025 03:14 +0000at://did:plc:mfjbrsqmib34p4wvoa3s3g37/app.bsky.feed.post/3lzmybzrjx22lhttps://bsky.app/profile/feelingthecold.bsky.social/post/3lzmy5qko522lI don’t like battling my mattress, memories serve as stakes pinning me down.25 Sep 2025 03:11 +0000at://did:plc:mfjbrsqmib34p4wvoa3s3g37/app.bsky.feed.post/3lzmy5qko522lhttps://bsky.app/profile/feelingthecold.bsky.social/post/3lzmlyvrpv22lDo you dream of me like I dream of you?24 Sep 2025 23:34 +0000at://did:plc:mfjbrsqmib34p4wvoa3s3g37/app.bsky.feed.post/3lzmlyvrpv22l