Was offline for awhile but I'm back - somewhat.https://bsky.app/profile/s0ftbrain.bsky.socialhttps://bsky.app/profile/s0ftbrain.bsky.social/post/3mou4m63w6k2r#caterpillarsky22 Jun 2026 05:09 +0000at://did:plc:sofhjluqe7sf4ainscwy6xd7/app.bsky.feed.post/3mou4m63w6k2rhttps://bsky.app/profile/s0ftbrain.bsky.social/post/3moqxaxyvwc2lThursday was the first time in a long time that I slipped back into my old b■nging habits and now I'm trying desperately to get back on track because that scared me. I've lost 30lbs all to ruin it with b■nging again. The urges will always be there but controlling it is the hardest part..20 Jun 2026 22:55 +0000at://did:plc:sofhjluqe7sf4ainscwy6xd7/app.bsky.feed.post/3moqxaxyvwc2lhttps://bsky.app/profile/s0ftbrain.bsky.social/post/3moqev3yuo22mAnd now I'm eating hash browns20 Jun 2026 17:26 +0000at://did:plc:sofhjluqe7sf4ainscwy6xd7/app.bsky.feed.post/3moqev3yuo22mhttps://bsky.app/profile/s0ftbrain.bsky.social/post/3moqetusvpk2mMy last post was a month ago and I'm back. I do this thing where I disappear and magically reappear as if nothing happened lol seriously, that's why I'm not a good friend or person as a matter of fact.20 Jun 2026 17:25 +0000at://did:plc:sofhjluqe7sf4ainscwy6xd7/app.bsky.feed.post/3moqetusvpk2mhttps://bsky.app/profile/s0ftbrain.bsky.social/post/3mkw46wt3xs2n03 May 2026 02:26 +0000at://did:plc:sofhjluqe7sf4ainscwy6xd7/app.bsky.feed.post/3mkw46wt3xs2nhttps://bsky.app/profile/s0ftbrain.bsky.social/post/3mktnlzsysc2pTw; venting02 May 2026 02:59 +0000at://did:plc:sofhjluqe7sf4ainscwy6xd7/app.bsky.feed.post/3mktnlzsysc2phttps://bsky.app/profile/s0ftbrain.bsky.social/post/3mkqsjed4wk27I really locked in this month 😤 [contains quote post or other embedded content]30 Apr 2026 23:49 +0000at://did:plc:sofhjluqe7sf4ainscwy6xd7/app.bsky.feed.post/3mkqsjed4wk27https://bsky.app/profile/s0ftbrain.bsky.social/post/3mkqngxl5as2uI'll admit eating those 2 cinnamon rolls hurt my stomach :( [contains quote post or other embedded content]30 Apr 2026 22:18 +0000at://did:plc:sofhjluqe7sf4ainscwy6xd7/app.bsky.feed.post/3mkqngxl5as2uhttps://bsky.app/profile/s0ftbrain.bsky.social/post/3mkqndp2wm22uI feel so bad for not tracking my cals today. I simply forgot, my mind was on autopilot and didn't realize that I didn't weigh the eggs + whites. I did have that mindset of screw it I'll track tomorrow. I feel guilty though.. I am being nice to myself instead of the usual shaming myself.30 Apr 2026 22:17 +0000at://did:plc:sofhjluqe7sf4ainscwy6xd7/app.bsky.feed.post/3mkqndp2wm22uhttps://bsky.app/profile/s0ftbrain.bsky.social/post/3mk56dhp24k2eI think I'm going to strictly stick with omad for the remaining days of my period because I have been over eating the past three days.. https://media.tenor.com/iCXTOhgDGK4AAAAC/mean-girls-embarrassed.gif?hh=442&ww=40023 Apr 2026 04:28 +0000at://did:plc:sofhjluqe7sf4ainscwy6xd7/app.bsky.feed.post/3mk56dhp24k2ehttps://bsky.app/profile/s0ftbrain.bsky.social/post/3mjl23w7kqk2iI'm just talking myself out of a freak out..15 Apr 2026 23:24 +0000at://did:plc:sofhjluqe7sf4ainscwy6xd7/app.bsky.feed.post/3mjl23w7kqk2ihttps://bsky.app/profile/s0ftbrain.bsky.social/post/3mjkz3wikns2iI'm not going freak out bcuz this goes extremely over my cal limit. I'll just carry over the xtra cals to the next day but in all honesty I'm going to do a 24hr fast now on my new fast [contains quote post or other embedded content]15 Apr 2026 23:06 +0000at://did:plc:sofhjluqe7sf4ainscwy6xd7/app.bsky.feed.post/3mjkz3wikns2ihttps://bsky.app/profile/s0ftbrain.bsky.social/post/3mjkyznznlc2iStarting and stopping a fast after only doing 2hrs is kind of humiliating. All because of someone bought take out for the family and was very happy about it.15 Apr 2026 23:05 +0000at://did:plc:sofhjluqe7sf4ainscwy6xd7/app.bsky.feed.post/3mjkyznznlc2ihttps://bsky.app/profile/s0ftbrain.bsky.social/post/3mjirprvjbk2eIt's been 30 days since I took myself seriously about not b■nging. I've had thoughts, I've had urges but I pulled myself together and ground myself by looking in the mirror (I cringe every time I catch a glimpse of myself) I think this is doing something. I hope this motivation stays strong.15 Apr 2026 01:49 +0000at://did:plc:sofhjluqe7sf4ainscwy6xd7/app.bsky.feed.post/3mjirprvjbk2ehttps://bsky.app/profile/s0ftbrain.bsky.social/post/3mjbao7jc2c2j#caterpillarsky12 Apr 2026 01:55 +0000at://did:plc:sofhjluqe7sf4ainscwy6xd7/app.bsky.feed.post/3mjbao7jc2c2jhttps://bsky.app/profile/s0ftbrain.bsky.social/post/3mj7xwxjx2c2nIts muddy and rainy outside, I think I'm going to just do a walking video on yt. And see how that turns out. A 5k step video. #iwtlw811 Apr 2026 13:46 +0000at://did:plc:sofhjluqe7sf4ainscwy6xd7/app.bsky.feed.post/3mj7xwxjx2c2nhttps://bsky.app/profile/s0ftbrain.bsky.social/post/3mj6mvyhed22e11 Apr 2026 00:56 +0000at://did:plc:sofhjluqe7sf4ainscwy6xd7/app.bsky.feed.post/3mj6mvyhed22ehttps://bsky.app/profile/s0ftbrain.bsky.social/post/3mj6biju6s22wMy cals are still under 1,000. I would like to eat more so I won't trigger a b■nge or something. I'm going to drink the rest of the ar8zona tea. That should boost my cals over 1,000. I try not to eat under because I don't want to regret it later.. #iwtlw810 Apr 2026 21:32 +0000at://did:plc:sofhjluqe7sf4ainscwy6xd7/app.bsky.feed.post/3mj6biju6s22whttps://bsky.app/profile/s0ftbrain.bsky.social/post/3mj3hqplxec2iI just broke my fast with a veggie sandwich from sbwy. I ate the whole footlong lol it was 685 so I rounded it to 700. I'm okay with that tbh.09 Apr 2026 18:45 +0000at://did:plc:sofhjluqe7sf4ainscwy6xd7/app.bsky.feed.post/3mj3hqplxec2ihttps://bsky.app/profile/s0ftbrain.bsky.social/post/3mizszs5lhc2kI don't want to look like myself anymore and that's what's motivating me right now to stay on track. #iwtlw809 Apr 2026 03:02 +0000at://did:plc:sofhjluqe7sf4ainscwy6xd7/app.bsky.feed.post/3mizszs5lhc2khttps://bsky.app/profile/s0ftbrain.bsky.social/post/3miyprgsmj22bTw: w8/b■nge talk . . Today was w■igh-in and it's a steady decline. I'm okay with that. My mind wants it to be quick but I have to chill out and take it step by step or else I will start a b■nging cycle again. I try w■ight myself every week so I won't get emotionally dependant on the scale. #iwtlw808 Apr 2026 16:31 +0000at://did:plc:sofhjluqe7sf4ainscwy6xd7/app.bsky.feed.post/3miyprgsmj22bhttps://bsky.app/profile/s0ftbrain.bsky.social/post/3mix3qgjjrc22I like f¡Tb¡T because it doesn't get mad at me for having a low cal■rie in take. #caterpillarsky08 Apr 2026 01:00 +0000at://did:plc:sofhjluqe7sf4ainscwy6xd7/app.bsky.feed.post/3mix3qgjjrc22https://bsky.app/profile/s0ftbrain.bsky.social/post/3miuwbq37ds2lI'm going to aim for 24hrs to fast. 8hrs down now. #caterpillarsky07 Apr 2026 04:17 +0000at://did:plc:sofhjluqe7sf4ainscwy6xd7/app.bsky.feed.post/3miuwbq37ds2lhttps://bsky.app/profile/s0ftbrain.bsky.social/post/3miup7q3gsc26My urge to b■nge comes and then it goes. How about go and never come back pls - except rn dr pepper zero cream is satisfying my urge at the moment07 Apr 2026 02:10 +0000at://did:plc:sofhjluqe7sf4ainscwy6xd7/app.bsky.feed.post/3miup7q3gsc26https://bsky.app/profile/s0ftbrain.bsky.social/post/3mis4mikudk2uI'm going to chug the gross unflavored m3t@muc¡l so I could lose my appetite completely for the rest of the night.06 Apr 2026 01:32 +0000at://did:plc:sofhjluqe7sf4ainscwy6xd7/app.bsky.feed.post/3mis4mikudk2uhttps://bsky.app/profile/s0ftbrain.bsky.social/post/3mirtkg5d622sDo y'all still track on bdays?05 Apr 2026 22:50 +0000at://did:plc:sofhjluqe7sf4ainscwy6xd7/app.bsky.feed.post/3mirtkg5d622s