https://hollandeeznuts.straw.page/https://bsky.app/profile/hollandeeznuts.bsky.socialhttps://bsky.app/profile/hollandeeznuts.bsky.social/post/3mx33hryv6s2c[He does not mean it like that! Get your mind out of the gutter] Well, as much as I can as a spectator. I don't think I'd be a good player. I'd end up with, at minimum, a yellow by halftime. [contains quote post or other embedded content]04 Oct 2026 18:58 +0000at://did:plc:sqgr77h5eddcdvs7onco4zzi/app.bsky.feed.post/3mx33hryv6s2chttps://bsky.app/profile/hollandeeznuts.bsky.social/post/3mwzk4xgc5c2uFor now. I'm coming at you hard next time. [He's posing this as a playful competition of course. He lays his chin on Antonio's shoulder] [contains quote post or other embedded content]04 Oct 2026 04:15 +0000at://did:plc:sqgr77h5eddcdvs7onco4zzi/app.bsky.feed.post/3mwzk4xgc5c2uhttps://bsky.app/profile/hollandeeznuts.bsky.social/post/3mwz4z3nom22pWell, football commentary. It's different than playing. I'm not sure who's the best at that. The Spanish speaking American commentators were very lively at the very least. I didn't get to hear very many perspectives besides them, American English, UK, yours, and mine. [contains quote post or other embedded content]04 Oct 2026 00:21 +0000at://did:plc:sqgr77h5eddcdvs7onco4zzi/app.bsky.feed.post/3mwz4z3nom22phttps://bsky.app/profile/hollandeeznuts.bsky.social/post/3mwz467ctcc2p...that actually sounds like a lot of fun. It's like football. [contains quote post or other embedded content]04 Oct 2026 00:06 +0000at://did:plc:sqgr77h5eddcdvs7onco4zzi/app.bsky.feed.post/3mwz467ctcc2phttps://bsky.app/profile/hollandeeznuts.bsky.social/post/3mwyyzbkjuc2p(( Everyone give it up for Holly for making the INCREDIBLE list03 Oct 2026 23:09 +0000at://did:plc:sqgr77h5eddcdvs7onco4zzi/app.bsky.feed.post/3mwyyzbkjuc2phttps://bsky.app/profile/hollandeeznuts.bsky.social/post/3mwyo4yqevc27What's a commentary cuck office? [He has a very different perception of Erze than how she actually is] [contains quote post or other embedded content]03 Oct 2026 19:54 +0000at://did:plc:sqgr77h5eddcdvs7onco4zzi/app.bsky.feed.post/3mwyo4yqevc27https://bsky.app/profile/hollandeeznuts.bsky.social/post/3mwynuk45ws2dWhat the hell was Roderich doing shoving money up there? Was it something Gilbert told him to do? [contains quote post or other embedded content]03 Oct 2026 19:50 +0000at://did:plc:sqgr77h5eddcdvs7onco4zzi/app.bsky.feed.post/3mwynuk45ws2dhttps://bsky.app/profile/hollandeeznuts.bsky.social/post/3mwynopruxs2yINSIDE?! [He definitely was thinking this was a traditional orifice, not a ln improvised catheter. He shudders] [contains quote post or other embedded content]03 Oct 2026 19:46 +0000at://did:plc:sqgr77h5eddcdvs7onco4zzi/app.bsky.feed.post/3mwynopruxs2yhttps://bsky.app/profile/hollandeeznuts.bsky.social/post/3mwynddoiak2yThat's awful. I hope whoever did that is burning in hell or worse. [contains quote post or other embedded content]03 Oct 2026 19:40 +0000at://did:plc:sqgr77h5eddcdvs7onco4zzi/app.bsky.feed.post/3mwynddoiak2yhttps://bsky.app/profile/hollandeeznuts.bsky.social/post/3mwymwesry22yWhat? Has anyone done that to you?! [contains quote post or other embedded content]03 Oct 2026 19:33 +0000at://did:plc:sqgr77h5eddcdvs7onco4zzi/app.bsky.feed.post/3mwymwesry22yhttps://bsky.app/profile/hollandeeznuts.bsky.social/post/3mwxdsa7mjc2p[Surely an ice cream will help his headache]03 Oct 2026 07:17 +0000at://did:plc:sqgr77h5eddcdvs7onco4zzi/app.bsky.feed.post/3mwxdsa7mjc2phttps://bsky.app/profile/hollandeeznuts.bsky.social/post/3mwwlnpw2lc2nIt feels disrespectful to put it on top of you. [contains quote post or other embedded content]03 Oct 2026 00:05 +0000at://did:plc:sqgr77h5eddcdvs7onco4zzi/app.bsky.feed.post/3mwwlnpw2lc2nhttps://bsky.app/profile/hollandeeznuts.bsky.social/post/3mwwbjccquc2g...do they think it's performance art or something? Surely they recognize it's you. [contains quote post or other embedded content]02 Oct 2026 21:03 +0000at://did:plc:sqgr77h5eddcdvs7onco4zzi/app.bsky.feed.post/3mwwbjccquc2ghttps://bsky.app/profile/hollandeeznuts.bsky.social/post/3mwurww2udk2oI think it's worth it if we can get the help for free. [He sniffles. It's part of the echoing, empty feeling of grief that's resonating within him as he controls the initial wave] [contains quote post or other embedded content]02 Oct 2026 06:52 +0000at://did:plc:sqgr77h5eddcdvs7onco4zzi/app.bsky.feed.post/3mwurww2udk2ohttps://bsky.app/profile/hollandeeznuts.bsky.social/post/3mwtkfusevs22I do. I think a parmesan would go well with this right now. I can try making the meatballs with some kind of smoked cheese next time though. That might be good. [contains quote post or other embedded content]01 Oct 2026 19:05 +0000at://did:plc:sqgr77h5eddcdvs7onco4zzi/app.bsky.feed.post/3mwtkfusevs22https://bsky.app/profile/hollandeeznuts.bsky.social/post/3mwtjrlftek22This would be so good with the right cheese. [Well NOW he's thinking about what kind of cheese would go best with this meal] [contains quote post or other embedded content]01 Oct 2026 18:53 +0000at://did:plc:sqgr77h5eddcdvs7onco4zzi/app.bsky.feed.post/3mwtjrlftek22https://bsky.app/profile/hollandeeznuts.bsky.social/post/3mwtjdbc4zc22[He doesn't get the connection beyond just saying the word meat. But he is feeling a bit better, given a little time and redirecting his focus onto making sure Antonio is fed] Slightly. I'll be fine. [contains quote post or other embedded content]01 Oct 2026 18:45 +0000at://did:plc:sqgr77h5eddcdvs7onco4zzi/app.bsky.feed.post/3mwtjdbc4zc22https://bsky.app/profile/hollandeeznuts.bsky.social/post/3mwrbqhswes2v[That can be arranged. He helps him flip so he can face the table. Their plates can be side by side] If you want more meat you can have some of mine. [With being upset, his appetite has been disrupted. He can easily reheat the potatoes but the meatballs are much better fresh. [contains quote post or other embedded content]30 Sep 2026 21:24 +0000at://did:plc:sqgr77h5eddcdvs7onco4zzi/app.bsky.feed.post/3mwrbqhswes2vhttps://bsky.app/profile/hollandeeznuts.bsky.social/post/3mwravkprq22r[He blinks, lifting his head] ... Do you want to turn around? [He doesn't want Antonio to leave him yet. He likes the weight of him and the feeling of someone right here for him. This is the best compromise he can think of] [contains quote post or other embedded content]30 Sep 2026 21:09 +0000at://did:plc:sqgr77h5eddcdvs7onco4zzi/app.bsky.feed.post/3mwravkprq22rhttps://bsky.app/profile/hollandeeznuts.bsky.social/post/3mwr7u7z55223[He doesn't notice what Antonio's doing at all. He's far away, in his thoughts. He pulls Antonio even tighter to his chest, as if his boyfriend was a security object. He feels so small for once. If only he actually was that size, then he could tuck himself into Antonio's arms properly] [contains quote post or other embedded content]30 Sep 2026 20:50 +0000at://did:plc:sqgr77h5eddcdvs7onco4zzi/app.bsky.feed.post/3mwr7u7z55223https://bsky.app/profile/hollandeeznuts.bsky.social/post/3mwr74iqkvk23[He's not supposed to. He's the big brother. He's the one that's meant to be depended on, the pillar. He can't fall apart like this. He's squeezing his eyes tightly to try to will the feelings away. It is a good opportunity for Antonio to get the plate closer] [contains quote post or other embedded content]30 Sep 2026 20:37 +0000at://did:plc:sqgr77h5eddcdvs7onco4zzi/app.bsky.feed.post/3mwr74iqkvk23https://bsky.app/profile/hollandeeznuts.bsky.social/post/3mwr3g6ckfk2mNo, I meant...I meant that just bringing them up... [He's very much appreciating the hug. He's trying his best to keep it together but his resolve is crumbling a little at a time. He's desperately trying not to outright sob in front of Antonio. He wants to be the big, stony, brave man he should be] [contains quote post or other embedded content]30 Sep 2026 19:31 +0000at://did:plc:sqgr77h5eddcdvs7onco4zzi/app.bsky.feed.post/3mwr3g6ckfk2mhttps://bsky.app/profile/hollandeeznuts.bsky.social/post/3mwpviug5g22jNo. I brought it up. You don't need to apologize. I should be able to talk about them without crying like a kid. [Despite his words, he's appreciating the hug. He lightly tugs on Antonio's sleeve as a small signal that he wants him to sit on his lap so they can hug properly. He can't bear to ask] [contains quote post or other embedded content]30 Sep 2026 08:12 +0000at://did:plc:sqgr77h5eddcdvs7onco4zzi/app.bsky.feed.post/3mwpviug5g22jhttps://bsky.app/profile/hollandeeznuts.bsky.social/post/3mwpc5drpq22hWhat the hell did Antonio just send me30 Sep 2026 02:26 +0000at://did:plc:sqgr77h5eddcdvs7onco4zzi/app.bsky.feed.post/3mwpc5drpq22hhttps://bsky.app/profile/hollandeeznuts.bsky.social/post/3mwp6ibr4us2p[He feels like he wants to cry, but he doesn't want to do that in front of Antonio. This dinner was supposed to be relaxing or nice. He's already ruined that] I...I don't know. [contains quote post or other embedded content]30 Sep 2026 01:20 +0000at://did:plc:sqgr77h5eddcdvs7onco4zzi/app.bsky.feed.post/3mwp6ibr4us2phttps://bsky.app/profile/hollandeeznuts.bsky.social/post/3mwozaxu6gs2lThey did love me. A lot. But your dad is different from my parents. Of course he'd be proud of you for building an empire, that's exactly what he did. My parents didn't do that. So I'm just not sure... [He can't just shrug them off easily like Antonio can. He was very attached to them] [contains quote post or other embedded content]29 Sep 2026 23:47 +0000at://did:plc:sqgr77h5eddcdvs7onco4zzi/app.bsky.feed.post/3mwozaxu6gs2lhttps://bsky.app/profile/hollandeeznuts.bsky.social/post/3mwoya632x225I'm thinking about my parents. If they'd be proud of me...or if they'd be ok with who I am and what I've done. [He goes quiet, picking at his food] ... I don't think I've turned out the way they expected me to. [contains quote post or other embedded content]29 Sep 2026 23:29 +0000at://did:plc:sqgr77h5eddcdvs7onco4zzi/app.bsky.feed.post/3mwoya632x225https://bsky.app/profile/hollandeeznuts.bsky.social/post/3mwowvw7r3s25[Well that broke him out of it] Huh? What was that about money? I'm sorry, I was distracted. [contains quote post or other embedded content]29 Sep 2026 23:05 +0000at://did:plc:sqgr77h5eddcdvs7onco4zzi/app.bsky.feed.post/3mwowvw7r3s25https://bsky.app/profile/hollandeeznuts.bsky.social/post/3mwotgphxrk2q[He nods. He's not religious enough anymore to say grace. He just isn't rude enough to start eating while Antonio can't. Plus he's in his head now about what his parents would think of him now. He keeps it up as he chews, going deeper into his thoughts. At least the food is good] [contains quote post or other embedded content]29 Sep 2026 22:03 +0000at://did:plc:sqgr77h5eddcdvs7onco4zzi/app.bsky.feed.post/3mwotgphxrk2qhttps://bsky.app/profile/hollandeeznuts.bsky.social/post/3mwohcvpsvs2qI feel like they might be surprised. I...I don't know if they knew all of that when they passed. Certainly not the rich part. We struggled a lot. [He's sitting down across from Antonio but he doesn't start eating immediately. He needs to think for a moment first] [contains quote post or other embedded content]29 Sep 2026 18:26 +0000at://did:plc:sqgr77h5eddcdvs7onco4zzi/app.bsky.feed.post/3mwohcvpsvs2q