21yrs 🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍⚧️ | they/he | OSDD 1 | chronically ill Vent acc at this point Most active on: @logannotfoundhttps://bsky.app/profile/meadows-boy.bsky.socialhttps://bsky.app/profile/meadows-boy.bsky.social/post/3m4ypyrvah226Sometimes I look at my coping mechanism and just have to tell myself “at least it’s not drugs” Cause if that’s the standard I’m doing amazing06 Nov 2025 23:33 +0000at://did:plc:tgkr7uxcb5rbpmsg5mx6m3b3/app.bsky.feed.post/3m4ypyrvah226https://bsky.app/profile/meadows-boy.bsky.social/post/3m4ylnwh4hk2yHaving littles in the system means stuffed animals just got put on our “talk about in therapy today” list and it is 100% serious 😭😭06 Nov 2025 22:15 +0000at://did:plc:tgkr7uxcb5rbpmsg5mx6m3b3/app.bsky.feed.post/3m4ylnwh4hk2yhttps://bsky.app/profile/meadows-boy.bsky.social/post/3m4yf3erlj22zOn the topic of things I hate Speaking up for myself. It makes me wanna puke and die (probably at the same time)06 Nov 2025 20:17 +0000at://did:plc:tgkr7uxcb5rbpmsg5mx6m3b3/app.bsky.feed.post/3m4yf3erlj22zhttps://bsky.app/profile/meadows-boy.bsky.social/post/3m4y6r6teu22sI hate being an adult. I had to wake up early to make some phone calls and I hate it. I want sleep. I want to not have to be responsible06 Nov 2025 18:24 +0000at://did:plc:tgkr7uxcb5rbpmsg5mx6m3b3/app.bsky.feed.post/3m4y6r6teu22shttps://bsky.app/profile/meadows-boy.bsky.social/post/3m4w2nxhv2224For once in my life I’d like to be wrong It seems as tho I may have accurately project another disorder/condition My doctor said the gallstones are likely not causing issues rn which means I was right 🫠🫩 I just wanna be wrong once and it actually be a tiny small fixable issue 😭😭05 Nov 2025 22:06 +0000at://did:plc:tgkr7uxcb5rbpmsg5mx6m3b3/app.bsky.feed.post/3m4w2nxhv2224https://bsky.app/profile/meadows-boy.bsky.social/post/3m4uozurt7c2wIt’s just hit me I’m going to have to tell another person about my father within the like next week ish And I’m not loving that I honestly try to forget he exists because talking about him comes with talking about one of the most sensitive topics probably ever and that isn’t fun05 Nov 2025 09:05 +0000at://did:plc:tgkr7uxcb5rbpmsg5mx6m3b3/app.bsky.feed.post/3m4uozurt7c2whttps://bsky.app/profile/meadows-boy.bsky.social/post/3m4ujrstzas2xI am so done with the constant appts I have one tomorrow One next week and One the week after that And just medical stuff not therapy or MH based treatment05 Nov 2025 07:31 +0000at://did:plc:tgkr7uxcb5rbpmsg5mx6m3b3/app.bsky.feed.post/3m4ujrstzas2xhttps://bsky.app/profile/meadows-boy.bsky.social/post/3m4tu5rjzh22uAfter a little bit of googling idk if gallstones are the cause of my symptoms It’s mostly right side pain and upper abdominal pain according to the Mayo Clinic and that’s like 1% of my symptoms and not even full story of the 1% So either we ain’t got the full picture or the Mayo Clinic is wrong 🙃🫠05 Nov 2025 01:04 +0000at://did:plc:tgkr7uxcb5rbpmsg5mx6m3b3/app.bsky.feed.post/3m4tu5rjzh22uhttps://bsky.app/profile/meadows-boy.bsky.social/post/3m4tmplgr7s26It’s gonna be some sick and twisted joke if I have gallstones and delayed gastric emptying I’m considering finding god and fighting him if I have both cause he’s not as funny as he thinks he is04 Nov 2025 22:51 +0000at://did:plc:tgkr7uxcb5rbpmsg5mx6m3b3/app.bsky.feed.post/3m4tmplgr7s26https://bsky.app/profile/meadows-boy.bsky.social/post/3m4t5iz3fbk2gSometimes I forget how badly my dissociative disorder effects my pain tolerance, recognition of symptoms, and the normalization of symptoms Like wdym I’m supposed to be in excruciating pain from [insert issue]?? I barely feel it and even when I do its not even 10/10 pain04 Nov 2025 18:19 +0000at://did:plc:tgkr7uxcb5rbpmsg5mx6m3b3/app.bsky.feed.post/3m4t5iz3fbk2ghttps://bsky.app/profile/meadows-boy.bsky.social/post/3m4t2kb4a2s2lI probably have gallstones 😀 No clue what that means but I can for sure say it isn’t fun04 Nov 2025 17:26 +0000at://did:plc:tgkr7uxcb5rbpmsg5mx6m3b3/app.bsky.feed.post/3m4t2kb4a2s2lhttps://bsky.app/profile/meadows-boy.bsky.social/post/3m4sy4nxivk2wBeing the youngest in the waiting room is something I’ll never get over or stop being sad about in general Everyone is probably at least 50+ and I’m 2204 Nov 2025 16:42 +0000at://did:plc:tgkr7uxcb5rbpmsg5mx6m3b3/app.bsky.feed.post/3m4sy4nxivk2whttps://bsky.app/profile/meadows-boy.bsky.social/post/3m4ro74bb3k2gBeing chronically ill and having a best friend is so weird sometimes I just had to text him and warn him about an ultrasound I’m getting so I didn’t scare him shitless when I randomly drop the info that I’m at a hospital tomorrow morning04 Nov 2025 04:12 +0000at://did:plc:tgkr7uxcb5rbpmsg5mx6m3b3/app.bsky.feed.post/3m4ro74bb3k2ghttps://bsky.app/profile/meadows-boy.bsky.social/post/3m4p3rofh4k2eI say this a lot but I can’t stand my mother Instead of being happy I was *finally* able to shower after like a month cause my chronic illnesses are causing too many issues to worry about hygiene She’s worried I’m going to wake up my uncle by tapping my conditioner bottle03 Nov 2025 03:37 +0000at://did:plc:tgkr7uxcb5rbpmsg5mx6m3b3/app.bsky.feed.post/3m4p3rofh4k2ehttps://bsky.app/profile/meadows-boy.bsky.social/post/3m4oygjr67s2eThe need to take albuterol and nausea meds overlap ever so slightly so now Idk if I need one or both or neither The life of allergies ig03 Nov 2025 02:37 +0000at://did:plc:tgkr7uxcb5rbpmsg5mx6m3b3/app.bsky.feed.post/3m4oygjr67s2ehttps://bsky.app/profile/meadows-boy.bsky.social/post/3m4ojei3uf22zI genuinely can’t stand my mother someday Instead of asking the pharmacy that has the information she came home and asked me with a fraction of the information I’d need to answer the question God forbid a man wants his mom to use her brain 🙄02 Nov 2025 22:07 +0000at://did:plc:tgkr7uxcb5rbpmsg5mx6m3b3/app.bsky.feed.post/3m4ojei3uf22zhttps://bsky.app/profile/meadows-boy.bsky.social/post/3m4l6wpe6ec2qI genuinely have zero clue how I will be able to fix my sleep schedule in like a week and a half I have to go from 1:30pm wake up time to 7/7:30am wake up time 😭😭01 Nov 2025 14:23 +0000at://did:plc:tgkr7uxcb5rbpmsg5mx6m3b3/app.bsky.feed.post/3m4l6wpe6ec2qhttps://bsky.app/profile/meadows-boy.bsky.social/post/3m4l4u42vwk2qBeing a system of “why do we need sleep that’s wasted time” and “it’s okay you’re allowed to rest” is the bane of all of our existence cause Then we just stay up all night and feel guilty about it01 Nov 2025 13:46 +0000at://did:plc:tgkr7uxcb5rbpmsg5mx6m3b3/app.bsky.feed.post/3m4l4u42vwk2qhttps://bsky.app/profile/meadows-boy.bsky.social/post/3m4hufnl6ss2dI just found out day light savings on Sunday I am so busy next week. I can’t be adjusting to a new schedule on top of the stress of next week 😭😭 Being and adult is NOT worth it31 Oct 2025 06:36 +0000at://did:plc:tgkr7uxcb5rbpmsg5mx6m3b3/app.bsky.feed.post/3m4hufnl6ss2dhttps://bsky.app/profile/meadows-boy.bsky.social/post/3m4gzkf3re22eJust some random thoughts about therapy I think I’m too self aware or too good at self therapizing. I do all the things that a therapist would recommend or want me to learn Self soothing, comfort items, safe exposures to triggers, recoding negative connotations, writing, etc.30 Oct 2025 22:36 +0000at://did:plc:tgkr7uxcb5rbpmsg5mx6m3b3/app.bsky.feed.post/3m4gzkf3re22ehttps://bsky.app/profile/meadows-boy.bsky.social/post/3m4euxvqpcc2tI’m tweaking over this whole not having access to my regular therapist for 6-8 weeks thing I’m praying to whatever higher power exists that I can just move my appointment to after program is over each day so there’s no scheduling conflict I need my weekly appt like I need air to breathe30 Oct 2025 02:09 +0000at://did:plc:tgkr7uxcb5rbpmsg5mx6m3b3/app.bsky.feed.post/3m4euxvqpcc2thttps://bsky.app/profile/meadows-boy.bsky.social/post/3m4er7r64pk2eIf one more doctor charts something I never said or calls me “Class three severe obese“ or whatever the proper term is I will loose my mind My weight was only ever a problem when I dropped like ten pounds from malnutrition and I‘ve been in absolute hell trying to maintain my body’s healthy weight30 Oct 2025 01:01 +0000at://did:plc:tgkr7uxcb5rbpmsg5mx6m3b3/app.bsky.feed.post/3m4er7r64pk2ehttps://bsky.app/profile/meadows-boy.bsky.social/post/3m4eot6smqk2tI think ppl forget those who have attachment issues and really vulnerable things to talk about in therapy will get attached to their therapist I am very attached to mine because we have a rapport and I trust her and we’ve built our therapeutic relationship30 Oct 2025 00:19 +0000at://did:plc:tgkr7uxcb5rbpmsg5mx6m3b3/app.bsky.feed.post/3m4eot6smqk2thttps://bsky.app/profile/meadows-boy.bsky.social/post/3m4eaad3s5c24The ED clinic wants me to do partial hospitalization Which is just you go home after instead of living in I can do virtual so it’s not a big problem but damn I wasn’t expecting the big guns days one 😭😭29 Oct 2025 19:57 +0000at://did:plc:tgkr7uxcb5rbpmsg5mx6m3b3/app.bsky.feed.post/3m4eaad3s5c24https://bsky.app/profile/meadows-boy.bsky.social/post/3m4cnrdrsvs2hIf my bio says I am chronically ill maybe let’s not say shit like “just be glad you don’t have the lower back pain ppl in their 30s do” I actually developed my chronic back pain at 19/20 but I have had it off and on since I was a child due to said chronic illness and family history29 Oct 2025 04:54 +0000at://did:plc:tgkr7uxcb5rbpmsg5mx6m3b3/app.bsky.feed.post/3m4cnrdrsvs2hhttps://bsky.app/profile/meadows-boy.bsky.social/post/3m4bwfyf7ms2bMe: I struggle with sleeping, eating, talking, standing, walking, cognitive function, and have full body pain 24/7 that requires a mobility aid and all of this disables me and prevents me from having a job Government: are you really disabled tho cause according to our rules your perfectly fine28 Oct 2025 21:56 +0000at://did:plc:tgkr7uxcb5rbpmsg5mx6m3b3/app.bsky.feed.post/3m4bwfyf7ms2bhttps://bsky.app/profile/meadows-boy.bsky.social/post/3m4apba6odk2vThe constant nausea ppl are so much better than me. I’m gonna crash out Instead of adnominal pain I’m getting discomfort and lots of nausea rn I think id rather have the pain tbh 😭😭28 Oct 2025 10:16 +0000at://did:plc:tgkr7uxcb5rbpmsg5mx6m3b3/app.bsky.feed.post/3m4apba6odk2vhttps://bsky.app/profile/meadows-boy.bsky.social/post/3m4a7p7xwnk25I just went and looked at the Washington DSHS website (like the official .gov site) and as long as nothing changes from today to the first I should still get my benefits cause it isn’t food assistance I think I might pass out from relief (not literal)28 Oct 2025 05:37 +0000at://did:plc:tgkr7uxcb5rbpmsg5mx6m3b3/app.bsky.feed.post/3m4a7p7xwnk25https://bsky.app/profile/meadows-boy.bsky.social/post/3m47vvd23vs2nJust wanna warn any fandom accounts that have started following me here I don’t talk about that on this page. This is my “I have a shitty family and bad health“ vent page Feel free to stay if that’s your jam but if its not I promise you’ll have more fun on @logannotfound.bsky.social (my other page)28 Oct 2025 02:42 +0000at://did:plc:tgkr7uxcb5rbpmsg5mx6m3b3/app.bsky.feed.post/3m47vvd23vs2nhttps://bsky.app/profile/meadows-boy.bsky.social/post/3m47fha4xo22jI got my intake appt with the ED clinic but now I have to decide one if I tell them about my preferred name and pronouns and two if I tell them about my OSDD Both are important bits of info about me but *gestures to the current state of trans rights*27 Oct 2025 21:48 +0000at://did:plc:tgkr7uxcb5rbpmsg5mx6m3b3/app.bsky.feed.post/3m47fha4xo22j